ten white beads – the fifth bead

TEN  WHITE BEADS – Always We Begin Again

(With Commentary by Christen Lore Weber)

“…I wash myself with snow water…”

-Job 9.30



neither a noble mind nor a pure heart are necessary

if you would discover the secret cave of the sacred packe

if you would discover the undiscovered country of love

you must denounce both starlight and the shadowy forest

if you would remain wilde and free as the white wolfe

you must repudiate all that you feel you love and do not love

you must renounce all that you think you fear and do not fear

you must find the source of pure sorrow and snowy waters



I’m reminded again of TS Eliot’s FOUR QUARTETS, where this thought repeats again and again, but is profoundly evident in “East Coker III” particularly in the last section, beginning:

“…In order to arrive there

To arrive where you are, to get from where you are not,

You must go by a way wherein there is no ecstasy…”

And yet, this divesting is the essence of ecstasy, and the mystic knows that to be true even in this experience of loss and of darkness. Only here is the white wolfe found. And we discover that the white wolfe is not only innocence, not only wildness, not only freedom, but is the source of ecstasy itself for which all else must be surrendered.


(© November 12, 2006)

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